Whaddup??!!

Hey peeps. It's been a long time since I last updated this thing. So yeah. Here I am again. It's MYE fever now. Pheww. Can die already. But I don't want to talk about it anymore. Whatever comes, I'll just accept it.

Honestly speaking, I miss the times I'm being forced to be confronted, forced to be talking about things I don't like to talk about, forced to be listened throughout. Why? I felt so insecure this days. I just have so much to catch up. It's such a big jump. I sometimes felt so pressurized that one day, I broke down and cried. I really don't know what to do. I felt really insecure. I don't have anything to hold on to. I don't really have anyone to hold on tightly to. When people gives me random hugs, it just gave me that sense of longing and appreciated. And sometimes, that hug too gave me that motivation. To just live on. People may say that want to die earlier and that's what had been in my mind for a long time. But to think again of all the people who made you live your life, who existed in your life, who you actually cared about just pulls you back and continue till your final destination. My point here is, I just need some love and care. Right here, right now, no matter what it costs me, no matter how. With this. I end my entry for today.


Signing off,
Hayashi.

Whaddup ?!

Hey peeps. It's me once more. Yeah. Exam fever is back once more. For once, I never felt this much of pressure. Why? Because those damned SYF is in 2 months! Well, we realy can't do much. But what I know is we seriously need to buck up.

 I have something to share. This days I felt empty. And by empty, I meant very empty.I don't know why.


Recently, I accidentally my friend's notes. I know she write beautiful things. And I decided to read more. But what I read, it actually sets me to tears. I never knew she appreciated me so much. How she would rather help me. She wrote about me saving her. Thinking of it now makes me wanna cry. I don't know why. The way she wrote about love, life and all, she really moved me. She makes me realize how important I am, to her.

Because of her, I felt that I am finally somebody. All this while, I thought I was a nobody. Now, I'm going to make her feel that she's a somebody to me. I'm going to make her feel that she's no more a nobody to any body. To those out there, you just got to realize. You are as important as a king to the kingdom. Without you, nobody is somebody. I know that you completed somebody.




Signing off,
Hirotake Hayashi

Whaddup ?!

Know what? I am still so impressed with him. It's almost three years now.

The first time he came in, he came in smiling. When he came to work, he came smiling. When he's going home, he went home smiling.

He smiles when he helps me. He smiles when I'd blown my top. He smiles even though I scolded him.

People can't resist it but to smile every time he does to others. He tried his best to make me smile when I am not.   He tried some more when I am already am smiling. When asked why, he said, "You're not smiling sincerely."

Impressive. That was my first thought.

But then, I am just so curios. He is just so worried about others. But sometimes I wonder, how about him?

He troubled himself so much just to help me.

I never knew how to repay him.

Even yesterday(15 February) when I was so fed up and had been so rude to him, he simply laughed.

He left me wondering. Why?

Why had he laughed?

Why does he find it so funny?

Why had he considered it as an entertainment for himself?

Why? And why exactly he left me wondering alone?

He loves games. Especially mind games. I don't understand. He will just leave you there all so puzzled. Wondering all alone.

But the thing that he does that never fails to move and touch others' hearts is when he smiles.

His smile just seems to melt and warm others' hearts.

His smile lits up the world in others. Even though his smile is just a candlelight lit, it still counts. It's people like him who make people's day. People like him contributes to others' life. People like him fulfills one's dream. People like him fulfills one's need.



Signing off,

Hirotake Hayashi

Whaddup ?!

Hey peeps. Been a long long time since I last update this thing. Well, my life hasn't change as much. But my lifestyle did. Oh man. Suck. SUCK I TELL YOU. Sometimes, I got so pissed off at the smallest little things. Especially this days. I got so pissed off so easily that people got pissed of with ME. What the heck. Well. What to do. Hey. Know what? Probably they will re-elect a new President. YEAH MAN! And plus. I got new band fetish. Guess who? Old boys WESTLIFE!!!!! Yeah that's right. Loving them man. :D Life is short people. I got so many problems. But I kept everything away. But I remembered what Mr Kamal said: "You can keep on letting people punching your face and forget  about it. But will you? What will you do if people punch your face?" 

I still remember my answer to that question:  "I will punch back of course!" Tearing. Tears are dropping, I tell you. He told me something that really is so meaningful: "Yeah, you can punch back. But wouldn't that be harsh? Your solving a problem by making another problem. And you have another option you chose not to choose. You can turn around and lock them person up and warn them not to punch you. Which simply means you solve that problem by really solving. You take small little steps,though it's very hard for you. "

I teared more. I never knew why. But serious shits, he spoiled me rotten. But thanks to him. I am the person I am now. Not all changed. But slightly better. Slightly loved. Thanks to him, everybody's world is a little bit more better. Though it's not much. It still is better.

Signing off

Hayashi

P/S : Smile. People, smile. :)       

Whaddup ?!



Yo peeps!! I am back from days of silence.. I am just plain bored here okay? And .. oh yeah!  Its raining! Look!! Okay .. what ever .. hehe ... i will tell why i love the rain so much.. And wow! I am still crazy over Remy Ishak!!! Rudolf Schenker too!! I am adding a new one, AVANTASIA'S TOBIAS SAMMET!! Woots!! I LOVE REMY ISHAK AND RUDOLF SCHENKER AND TOBIAS SAMMET!! Okay.. i am just overreacting here... what ever... i miss Kapoku lots lots... i got no guitar to strum already... :( .... its okay!! but then, my composing will slow down too.. haix.. what to do? Here's who:

Rain On Me !!

Remy Ishak

Rudolf Schenker

Tobias Sammet




















And most IMPORTANT of all......

Nisa Schenker Andika!!
@
Hirotake Hayashi!!
@
Nazuma Himahara!!

:p












Signing off,
Hayashi

Whaddup ?!




Hey people!!!Its been a long time since I update this blog.Yeah..Very lazy...Congratz to me for composing 4 songs altogether!*around of applause* HAHAHA.. And this is what you call self-praise --'  ..Hehe..YUP!! I AM GOOD! First is "Why Are They Killing Me" , next, "Wishes" ,followed by my first complete Malay song,"Inspirasi Hidupku" which means "The Inspiration Of My Life" and my currently last one,"Bring Us To Fantasy".. Both new ones are inspirated by my dear Remy who really set me thinking.Thanks wherever you are.

But I am seriously not congratulating myself for being the Chairman of Drama Club.Like WTF?? Its only my first day and when Ms Tan told us to brainstorm,I DIDN;T GET THE CHANCE TO SPEAK!!!! Shit or what? No idea..... haixx.. what to do.. I have got problems at home but who am i going to talk to? Ms Jacq? Mr Joseph? Mr Kamal?

I got no problems talking to Ms Jacq but she is no more in the cabin and she herself is very busy.No probs talking to Mr Joseph but how? He is no more in the school..I dun mind crying in front of him.. did that so many times before and he really helped me..... Mr Kamal? I never want him to see me cry if I want to talk face to face..Paisey nia.....All this time I talked all my prob to him on the phone..exting of course..who would dare to call a teacher? Well in case of emergency of course... I did last time.... Now what? What am i gonna do?

If I told my friends,they won't give advices,thet will just tell me just forget about it..They are immature like me too... So .. what the hell am i gonna do now???????

Signing off,
Hayashi

Whaddup ?!


Hey guys .. Long time never update huh ?
Yeaahs .. sorry !! No time liao .. Huhu .. See lah .. Kapoku injured .. got one wound you know .. huhu .. Hahah .. so funny to name my guitar ..so bored .. searching for ABPBH 2009 full vid but still cannot find !!! So difficult leyh !!Hmm .. currently over Remy Ishak and Scorpions (especially favourite composer and guitarist RUDOLF SCHENKER !!) and composing a song .. Have got two songs , " Why are they killing me" and "Dear friends" but not going to publish it .. hehe .. my new song its either gonna be "No perfect guy" or "Another chance" hehe .. just wait !!

REMY ISHAK

RUDOLF SCHENKER

SCORPIONS

REMY ISHAK

Signing off,

Hayashi :P

Whaddup ?!


Hye people !! I am BACK !!! Wakaka .. Tired 'cause i am back from camp .. Hehe .. Guess what ? Just after i bath when i got home , straight away i hug my guitar and turn on this laptoop .. Now , my guitar is starring back at me .. Sitting next to me .. Hoping I would hug it .. Hahah .. I am talking crap now .. I just wanna update this blog .. Got to go .. TATA !!




Signing off ,
Hayashi

Whaddup ?!


Hey guys .. Its a Friday .. The 5th of March .. The last day Mr Faizal teaching us .. Best science teacher i ever had .. I meant we .. I think .. Okay .. whatever .. Today .. The most boring day ever .. well ... I may say this a million time some more in the future .. But ... Its is still so damned boring .. Know what ?? Bumped into Mr Kamal (not that hit bump ..) over 4 times today .. guess so.. let me recall first ... Hmm .. First , on my way going to the general office for the class diary .. just  finished going down the stairs .. greeted him and turn when Annisa called me .. he also looked at me .. keypo sia .. Next .. out of the office .. met him again .. so i said ..  "we meet again " .. Next.. on my way up to the library .. met him again and i say the same thing again .. he only smiles .. out of the library .. to the class room .. then when back up again .. meet him again .. and Annisa .. too .. Said the same thing to him again .. this time he only chuckled at Annisa and I having to feel weird calling each other's name which sounded the same ..  Next, recess .. Aiyoo .. Keep seeing the same face .. that "friendly" person I am.. said the same thing again and walked off .. its still .. recess time .. saw him again .. this time .. he was chasing his flying papers .. hahahahah .. so bad of me to laugh at him  ... wakakaka !!


Actually , what has that gonna do ?? GOnna chiao ..



Signing off ,
Hayashi

Whaddup ?!


Hey peeps !!! Its the first day of the common tests today and I find it quite easy . Well , it is to me ,  at least . I am so damned freaking bored here alright . I have no stories to tell you guys so, its gonna be bored like how I am feeling right now . Watching iCarly .. typing out this super boring blog post . Well .. I have got a topic to talk about - not .. Okay , now i do .. Scorpions !!! They are reitiring and I simply cant accept that !! I cant seem to live without their music .. I NEED THEM !! I want them in singapore !!


I have got to go ..

Signing off,
Hayashi

Whaddup ?!



Hey people !!! Welcome to part two of this story . Correction !! In the previous part , I forgot that H , came back from hospital because she visited her grandfather . And now , let the story begin !!

Since , its a figt her firend requested , a fight you are gonna give , H mind told her . That night , she summoned three of her other fiend's gang people . The next day , after her tuition , she went to some deserted place where they agreed to meet . To her suprise , her royal-blooded friend had brought four of her own people  - with batons !!

H hesitated . She wondered if she could win it . To her , this is no more a shoelace fight . This is pride . And she wont swallow her pride just like that . She has got to do something . She IS doing something . Fight . Fight for her pride .

They started off , punching , kicking , hitting and anything violent you can think of . Yes , its tough , but she have to do this . No matter what . Losing , her friend , or maybe now , her enemy , trieed to summon more of her people . H wont let this happen . Gave a punch at the face and sent her enemy's phone flying and crashing into the ground . Admitting defeat , her enemy ran and went away -forever . Finally , its done .

Now , the thing is , H is just afraid if other people will get to know of this and report it to the police . She have to stay aware . Till now , there is still no answer to what is going to happen next .

Nobody gets to know of this first other than me . Told this openly , but i promise , wont tell who that person is unless you guys yourselves know .


Chiaos ..

Signing off ,
Hayashi

Whaddup ?!


Hey peeps .. I know you guys missed me .. Haha .. Just kidding guys .. Hey , I have got another story guys . Sit back . By  the way , i know you guys hate "Once upon a time .." kind of stories . That is why i gave you guys REAL LIFE STORIES . Some are mine but some are not . So sit back guys ..

H , the girl i told you guys about her story before and i am going to tell another story now . H , came upon another incident . A problem , I would want to call it . She came back from a hospital and decided to go to the shops to shop for her stationeries . 5 minutes walking and she met her royal-blooded friend whom migrated to Singapore from Malaysia a year ago . She was forced to join her friend's stroll around together with the rest of her sidekicks. She was hesitant , but had to . A few minutes walking , H accidentally stepped on her friend's shoelace that made her friend fell . Her friend felt embarrased , I guess, and went spewing vulgarities out of her mouth. Frustrated , H gave a tight slap on her face . Walked off and say nothing .

For days , her friend texted her with vulgarities . The following week , H met her again and this time , she is the one who got slapped . Instead of taking revenge , she thanked her and walked off . Her friend was startled at her reaction. H's teacher had helped out by giving advices but  only few worked . More vulgarities came flooding in her inbox . She wont reply .

One day , her friend called . The most awing thing for she had never called . She said , " I want you to apologise to me . I am much more crucial than you are . I am royal - blooded , but you . Just ordinary people . If you want to meet , fine , but i am bringing my backups.I am migrating back to Malaysia on Sunday ." What a loser , H thought .She had apologised when her friend was spewing vulgarities . Fine , then I will finish it with a fight .



Haha sorry guys . Its too long ..
Wait for PART TWO !!


Signing off ,
Hayashi

Whaddup ?!

Hey people !!!
I am back !! Woah .. My back is aching this few days because of something . What rhe hell ? It hurrts !!!! But its okay .. I am fine !!! Hey !! Guess what !!!
I also dont know what .. Haha .. So damned bored .. Maybe I am gonna tell another story ?? Nope .. maybe next time because .. I want to watch the hottest drama in Malaysia in 2009 !! Actually , i watched it for already three times .. But .. I dont care !! I maybe "pausing" Hana Kimi for awhile .. I will wacth that show until i got bored out of it .. Haixx .. So less things to do since i came back from my holidays eventhough its already the fifth week .. Hold on .. Or is it the Sixth ? Yeah its the sixth .. Well , you can see how bored i am right ??
Because of this .. I want to watch that show .. Bye!!
bye !!!
Bye !!
Bye !!
Bye !!
Okay .. last one

BYE !!!


Hahas ..

Signing off,
Hayashi

Whaddup ?!


Today , I am gonna tell you guys a story . So, get seated !!!



It has been a rather busy month for a girl named H for her mind was flooded with knowledge that she could use for her End Of Year Examinations and problems that her great-grandmother was hospitalised . She thought that her end of year will never get any worse than that . Her mind was going to be haywire if she hadnt got the time to arrange her schedule . For she was in the midst of her examinations , she got hardly any time to visit her great - grandmother in a hospital in Malaysia except on Sundays .



She had been going in and out of Singapore just to visit her great - grandmother who was under Intensive Care Unit (ICU) . Her great -grandmother had been uttering ,"Ros , Ros .. " who is H's uncle's first wife . Ros had not came and visit . H's ucle's second wife came and said boastly,"Its okay , second "Ros" had came !" when H's great - grandmother had just been transferred to a normal ward . One day , Ros came in silence . Nobody knew she was there until one of H's uncle came . We never knew she can make a change but that is what exactly what she did.



H came and visit her great-grandmother . It was a long day for her but she cant stay long she have a paper the next day . She went back home . Almost seven when they reached home . They had just stepped into the house for not even more than half an hour when they received a called . Her great - grandmother had just passed away . People were going :"Huh ?!"


H knew she had to stay while the rest went back to Malaysia for she have a paper the next day . So , she slept over at her neighbours' .She went to school as per normal . She did her paper her best . Time is up . Handed in her paper , rushed out of the school and flag a cab for she was given mmoney to take a cab .Straight to the immigration and poof ! She was in Malaysia . Her father had been waiting in the car . Rushed to her father , sped to the house and she ran out like a mad girl in her short skirt with uniform . Rushed into the house , gave a last kiss to her great grandmother and cried .



She learnt a lesson . Dont let people suffer because of you . Ros had made the right choice to stop her great-grandmother's suffering . And that is what we are going to do ..

Whaddup ?!


Yeah !! What ?? Arghh !!! I cant think straight man! Well , if there is any woman reading this , it will be :
" I cant think straight woman ! " Arghh !!! What in the world am i doing ??!!Why cant I think straight ??!! What is wrong exactly ?? First , i think its because of my sinking friendSHIPS . Well , I quarelled with a friend of mine .. Sorry , its not my primary school friend .. She is someone i know in Malaysia who migrated to Singapore .. My mistake !!

Second I think its because of the stupid Mei Na or however she spelled her name . I don't really care actually .. And all those school works .. Argh !!!


Poor Gio .. Broken - hearted Gio .. He had the courage to actually face that girl to ask what is the reason why she don't like making guy friends who is older than her . She kept quite all the while !! Gio finally gave up and went off broken - hearted . Tsk tsk tsk ..Well , when i left him , he looked rather sad but changed all of a sudden i don't know why for he suddenly actually critic that girl !! Urgh .. so scary .. Oh my god .. I can feel my hair standing when he actually critics her together with the sudden change of his emotions .


So , as the "good chairman" I am (whatever !:D), I suggested him to talk out his problems to either a teacher or and adult .. I suggested Mr Kamal for he helped me alot though only one or two of his advices worked(sorry Mr Kamal !!) .. Haha .. I still remembered , I am so fed-up that i sent the text with my frustration inside to him !! Haha .. but .. I am still wondering .. will my friend (or enemy) actually forgive me for what i have done to her ? I won't go on details on how i really reacted to the situation when she emberrased me in public unless , people begged for it .. Haixx .. But , I c=still cannot believe that i sent to the wrong recipient !! So paisey !!


Chiaos.. Got to end here ..

Signing off,
Hayashi

Whaddup ?!



Hey people , finally ,i am back from days of silence . I want to edit something . Last post, i talked about a show called suraya right ? The Pak Salleh is wrong . its supposed to be Pak Hasyim . Yeah , why the hell am i telling actually ?


About this year starting off quite harsh , it became worse when Sharon announced that she will be going back to Nigeria . Come on ! My life is soon going empty man ! She said , " You guys should be happy for me !" Its like .. you know..what the _____ ? Hey , i am losing a friend , not an enemy !


School is getting harsh . My financial is not so good . Come on ? Its there any more ?


Gotta stop here ..


Signing off,
Hayashi .

Whaddup ?!


Hey people ! Its me ! Durhs , who else would know the password to my blog right ? I got some questions from people why do I named my blog My Life Stories . I think the answer is pretty clear . This is a blog . Which to me is the digital version of a personal diary .

The main reason is that every post sent in by the writer is an experience based on tthe true events that happened in that writer's life. Basically , it is just a compilation of happenings . Some people sensed that melancholy feeling if they read about sad happenings . These happenings were the events in part of a life story .


This blog is about a life story of mine . Now , I shall begin . It is the third day of the beginning of the year . Life here is so damned bored . The only thing i do after school is going to my religious class . And i went back home do some homework . And done . Recently , I have been watching a drama entitled 'Suraya'. It is about a little girl from the royal family of the 'Bentara' blood who want to seek revenge upon her parent's death . With the help of her male friends , Azman(Remy Ishak),Anuar (Tony Eusoff),Steve(Zain Saidi), Megat(Fizo Omar),she succeed in catching the mastermind . She got her rights in Laksamana Holdings , which is the family's company . Suraya , played by Zizie Ezette , made the decision to take Pak Salleh(if I am not wrong) and family as her guardians and Azman , Pak Salleh's son ,as her step-brother .With all the help and support she has , she found the answer she was finding and the culprits . This is one of the examples of a life story.

I got to end here .Chiaos.


Signing off,
Hayashi

Whaddup ?!


Hey people , I'm back ! Goodbye 2009 and Hello 2010 ! I am so very sorry about not updating this blog but its okay ! People know I went to Malaysia everytime holiday season is on the run . Well , just a summary on how is my holidays .. Is it fine ?


Well , it started off quite harsh when i have to adapt myself again in Malaysia . I have to get used to doing chores all over again . Taking out the garbage , sweeping , buying groceries go to the shops and buy this and that and bla bla bla . Plus , I too have to adapt the situation being average . Here in Singapore , I have all the luxury like money , laptop and bla bla bla but far far in Malaysia I have only just enough money and sometimes because of money my family starved . I dont have laptops in malaysia that is why i had not got the chance to update my blog .


Seriously , I felt better in Malaysia for my days there were never dull .At least , I have always things to do. Taking care of my neighbour's child , doing chores and most of all , playing the guitar . Flying kites , cycling ,playing ps2 , watching tv and so on never seemed to make me not think of any other things to do .


Some times , i felt like leading a double life . A Malaysian and a Singaporean life . I can go on for days talking about my holidays in Malaysia but when you ask me about my life in Singapore , words that will come out of my mouth are like , "nothing much" and "boring". Two lives , one girl . Simply the second version of Hannah Montana's daily episode only the thing is this is a reality . A life story . A real life story of mine. All rights reserved . =D


Signing off,
Hayashi

Whaddup ?!




Yo people ! Hayashi is finally back after days of silence .... But , never mind ! I am back ! Well i have been to the aesthetics camp on 9 and 10 nov. It was sooo fun man !The first day was all games and games and more games until it almost reached bedtime . My group is supposed to prepare supper . I helped some of them to carry the tables but when they wanted to put it down , they never tell me . In the end , the table was on my foot ! First , it was not quite pain but when it was near bedtime when it starts to hurt . Woah .. You cannot imagine how painful it si when Ms Tan iced it ! I felt like screaming !


The next day , amazing race .. OMG ! With my painful leg , i am expected to run ! Its okay , i am fine . Now , i can finally run properly . Phew !Went back home and have a rest !


On thursday , we were to undergo some sort of training for the school digital media award . The trainer , Jesper , is so kind ! He bears with all sorts of our behaviour ! We told him to order Mcdonals , he did , but , of course we paid ourselves . We made noise , he remained silence. So good sia !

Friday , which is today , we have to finalize our script . Since we cant record it yet, we spent our time at that place , which is The Eighth Note Music School . We begged Jesper to teach us some chords when we were playing the guitar, he really did ! He was so sincere ! Well , we laughed and we joked . We are like some idiots . If you guys wanna see what we recorded and did , go to youtube and search for some videos with the title 'A day at the eighth note music school - blablabla' Chiao !



Signing off ,
Hirotake Hayashi

Whaddup ?!



Hye[its pronunced as hi.Note this !] people . I know you guys missed me . Joking . I am so darn tired . My days at Peer Leader Training is more like a military camp to me . On first day , i fainted . Its because of the headache i am suffering and due to heat exhaustion . I missed so many activities . I fainted when we were doing push-ups . Its the 45th and i slumped down falling flat on my face . When my head come into contact with the ground , only god knows how it feels . The next thing i know , i was in the sick bay surrounded with mentors and teachers .


Second day , amazing race and record breaking feat . Amazing race is so tiring ! From Kranji countryside to Raffles Place . Urgh . Lunch time , we had burgers ! It was generous of Ms Sangeetha to buy us one SET of meal EACH. Wow ! And my energy boost up even more when we saw Christopher Lee ! OMG ! So xuai ! Fann Wong kepo sia . Never mind la .. Record breaking feat . So fun ! We are to sit in a formation with ballons above our heads - in the rain ! Its more like a squating thing . My knees are buckled man. But it pays off when we heard that we actually broke the current record ! Yeah ! Fajarians rock ! Especially me ! Yeah ! Three cheers and three cheers and three cheers for Fajarian Leaders ! Hip hip , hooray ! Hip hip , hooray ! Hip hip , hooray ! Yeah ! Rock on !


Third and last day . We went trekking from Bukit Timah back to school. Wow its really tiring with our heavy bags on our backs ! We walked and walked and came to a pause when there is a casualty play . Syakir became our casualty . Man , he was damned heavy when we carried him using baka poles and canvas . We keep stopping and changing people . Well only a person changed , me . Then , Jeremy followed by Sie Thung and finally Yan Xin . Woah .. Cannot tahan liao . I swear all throughout the three days there , i got the same stupid headache . Stupid sia . I kept it a silent issue all along . Shh ....


Signing off ,
Hirotake Hayashi